Well, my original television pilot Hunting Victor Frankenstein made it as far as the semifinals in the Creative World Awards. Unfortunately, it was eliminated at the finals. I’m still really proud of the script, and hope it can one day find a home somewhere. It’s written more for network television than cable (and Fresh Voices did call it “worthy of network consideration”), but I do think readers and producers are more interested in cable-style scripts these days. Everyone wants a deal with HBO or Netflix or FX or something, which HVF just isn’t that kind of material. So that may have worked against it.

Mostly I’ve been focused on my prose projects these days, but I still harbor tiny hopes that some of my screen work will one day be produced.

Feast or Famine

I’ve found this to be so true in my writing life. Either I’ve got nothing or there are a dozen projects going on at once.

At the moment I’m working on the second Changers book. I’ve had some eager readers asking for it, which makes me so happy because it means they really did like the first one. (BTW, the latest Amazon review stated that the reviewer would recommend Manifesting Destiny for fans of Harry Potter and Percy Jackson. How flattering is that?!) I’m also keen to finish my Regency romance novel Brynnde which feels as if it’s been very close to done for a long time now yet somehow just keeps going.

And now I’ve been fielding questions about whether there will be a sequel to Peter. I love that book and those characters and that world, but it didn’t sell very well. ::sad face:: I do think I want to write at least one more book, maybe two, maybe more, and I’ve even started on that process, but I can’t prioritize it at the moment. Still, very heartwarming to know at least a few people enjoyed it.

Finally, it also seems that screenwriting stuff is heating up again after being on the back burner for a while. I have fresh interest in a couple of my scripts and another content creator asking if I’d consider helping her write her series. And another screenwriting project is inching closer to pre-production with talks about potential casting. Wow! Always nice, if exhausting, to be in demand. Make hay while the sun shines and all that.

As we get ready to hurdle Hallowe’en and slide toward Thanksgiving, I have much to be grateful for. This is certainly a feast for me, at least in terms of creative work. Thank you, readers and fellows, for all the encouragement! You feed my soul!

Half Way!

Time again to check in on those goals set at the beginning of the year! Goals in green have been achieved.

1. Finish the revision of Changers.
2. Find an agent or publisher for Changers.
3. With my co-writer, finish the Hard Reset script.
4. Write and release at least one more Sherlock Holmes story.
5. Attend at least one writing conference and/or do at least one reading or signing.
6. Find a home for “Aptera.”

I revised Changers and it has been accepted for publication by Evernight Teen. We’ve done two rounds of edits and I’m eagerly awaiting a cover and official release date (they projected July, which is, like, now).

Hard Reset is on the back burner due to extenuating circumstances. I am, however, working to land other scripts with producers and/or directors.

And I did also start writing a new Sherlock Holmes story, but with Changers being picked up, I’ve had to divert my attention to the sequels (it’s meant to be a trilogy). I’ve also been sidetracked by the siren call of a Regency romance novel—a very old project I picked up and dusted off and now find myself steeped in. But I’m enjoying it immensely!

As for writing conferences, I’ve got two booked: Writer’s Digest in New York in August (just an attendee), and InD’Scribe in Burbank in October, where I’ll be presenting and will also have an author table. I’m super excited to officially participate in my first conference as a guest author!

Finally, I’m glad to say “Aptera” found a home with Aurora Wolf. It was published there on June 1st.

Thus far, I’d say things are going well. (Knocking on wood and casting against the Evil Eye.) While 2016 has had its downs, I prefer for now to focus on all the ups—those that have happened and those still to come. Cheers!

My Writing History

I find the question I most get as a writer is not, “Where do you get your ideas?” but “What does the M stand for?” And then, after that one, they ask, “When did you start writing?”

And that’s a difficult thing to answer. (The M thing is answered on my FAQ page linked at the top of the blog, btw.) Because I’ve been a writer a long time, but I get the sense that people want to know something more specific but aren’t sure how to ask.

This morning, for instance, my kids asked me when I learned to write. I told them, “I learned to read and write when I was three.” This is true. But I wasn’t, at age three, thinking of becoming a writer. Even when at age six or seven I was making a neighborhood “magazine” for other kids, I hadn’t considered writing as a goal or career. I wanted to make movies. I wanted to be like Steven Spielberg, who was the only name in movies I actually knew. No idea what he did, mind, but I wanted to do it, whatever it was.

So when people ask me “when” I started writing, I don’t think they mean all this. That’s dabbling. I think they’re asking about intent really.

Around age 10 or 11, I started to write stories. Really write them. I wrote them for my best friend, and I used favorite characters from books and movies and television. I didn’t know what fan fiction was; I didn’t learn about that until I was in college. I just liked weaving together incredibly complex stories that explored the characters more. And somewhere in there I became aware that screenwriting was a thing, that people wrote movies and TV shows. This was amazing to me. Two of my very favorite things in one! So when I went to college, I got a film degree and focused on screenwriting. And at the same time I discovered the wider fan community and became a fan fiction author. I got invited to conventions as a guest, and they were always amazed when they met me because I was 17 and apparently most fanfic writers were middle-aged women. It was fun, though. So much fun.

At the same time, I was interning on film sets and writing my final project, which was a spec for The X-Files. But while they taught me the mechanics of screenwriting, no one taught me the process of getting scripts to people, or networking, or all the other things that you really need to succeed. No one thought to tell me that, when the producer invited me to go to L.A., I should have done it. Instead, I had one more year of college and I stayed and finished. Only later would I realize I’d wasted a huge opportunity.

So when did I become a writer? In middle school, when I figured out that was what I wanted to do? In college, when I actually started trying? Or does it only count once I started getting published?

The school newspaper and literary magazine notwithstanding, I count my “first publication” as 2004. That year I had poems accepted in two literary journals and a short story published in Future’s Mysterious Anthology Magazine. I thought at the time I’d finally made it!

I wouldn’t have anything else published for four years, and that would be a self-pubbed anthology. Then, in 2012, I self-published my first Sherlock Holmes story. I count that as the true sparking of my career. (2012 was also the year I had my first play produced.) So when people ask, is that what I should say?

In truth, I began being able to focus on my writing again after I had children. Because I was home. Before that, I was working in publishing, making other people’s books happen and not doing any writing of my own (aside from blogging). But after I had my first baby, I opted to stay home. And rediscovered my love of writing.

And I started again with fan fiction. It was well received, and that encouraged me. I went back to the Sherlock Holmes story I’d written in 1999 (for grad school) and decided to put it on Amazon. It did well. I was further encouraged. And everything else flowed from there.

So. When did I start writing? A long time ago. When did I really devote myself to writing? Around 2009 or 2010 when I started writing fanfic again. I needed to scrape the rust off my skills, and that was a good way to do it. So that when it came time to turn my efforts to my original work, I was oiled up and ready to go.

And here I am. Chugging alone. It’s not always a smooth ride, but I’m enjoying most of the scenery.

2016 Goals Update

These are the goals with which I started the year. Items in green are accomplished.

1. Finish the revision of Changers.
2. Find an agent or publisher for Changers.
3. With my co-writer, finish the Hard Reset script.
4. Write and release at least one more Sherlock Holmes story.
5. Attend at least one writing conference and/or do at least one reading or signing.

The writing conference hasn’t happened yet, but I’m registered for it. I’ll be attending the Writer’s Digest conference in New York in August.

As for finding an agent or publisher for Changers, there has been some interest, so I have hopes it will work out.

I’m waiting for my co-writer to finish his end of the Hard Reset script. So in the meantime, I’ll be turning my attention to writing another Sherlock Holmes story . . . AND probably also poke at the Peter sequel. I’ve got about three pages of it written.

In fact, I’m doing so well it may be time to add another goal. I’m thinking:

6. Find a home for “Aptera.”

“Aptera” is a short story I wrote on spec for a specific anthology. If you read this blog at all regularly, you may remember that it was shortlisted but eventually rejected because it was too different from the other stories; it didn’t fit in with the overall tone of the anthology. So I’m hoping to find a home for it. It’s been rejected a couple more times, but I do believe in this story, so I don’t want to give up on it.

I’m pleased with my progress so far, despite a multitude of rejections in less than two months. Comes with the territory, I suppose. But I’ll keep my head down and keep plugging away. Ti par ti, as we say back home—little by little, I’ll get there.

Color-Blind Screenwriting

So I wrote a script some years ago that did fairly well in competition and received encouraging feedback. But one reader was annoyed that I hadn’t delineated the ethnicities of the characters. To be clear, the script is about four post-college friends, two men and two women. And the reader has a point—in order to picture the characters better, he wanted to know more about what they look like.

Certainly, when I write something, I have a mental image of my characters. And my job as a writer is to take what I see and put it in other people’s heads so they see it too. But in the case of this particular script, though I had ideas about the characters, the parts seem very open to me. These could be any four friends.

Casting directors would hate that. They want to narrow it down. (One reader suggested Jonah Hill and Joseph Gordon-Levitt for the two male roles.) But in the face of uproar over the “white Oscars,” I like to think a script like mine would be a great chance for minorities. Because it’s a shame that Idris Elba and Michael B. Jordan got overlooked, but there are also few great parts for minorities. In order to get nominated they first need to have opportunities.

Now, I’m not saying my script should be cast as some diversity stew. Diversity for the sake of it doesn’t work either. I’d need to go look at the script again to see what would make sense. But it’s something to consider. While the script did well in competition and has been through the hands of many [white male] indie directors (one comp called it “perfect for the A-list indie scene”), it has yet to find a home. Maybe it could find life under other circumstances. And then a minority like me (female screenwriter) might also get somewhere.

Don’t want to read a script? Try my latest novel instead. Reviews call it “compelling” and “incredibly written.” The Fall and Rise of Peter Stoller.

Picking Your Battles

Back in 2013 and 2014, I was spending a lot of time and money trying to find agents, producers, managers, directors—anybody, more or less—for my scripts. I’d get a nibble and get excited only to have it all fall apart a few weeks or months later. I’d get an option and then it would lapse. It was the constant feeling of swimming upstream.

At the same time, I was also bumping along with my prose. My Sherlock Holmes stories were doing pretty well. I was getting solid interest on the Peter manuscript. Sure, a lot of that fell through too, but there was certainly more sense of forward progress with my prose projects than with the screenwriting. And I wasn’t losing money on pitches and attorney’s fees, either.

So I finally had to stop and ask myself: How much does being a screenwriter really mean to me? Am I willing to continue tossing money and energy down that well? Or is my time better served focusing on my prose?

I’d already stopped writing stage plays. Maybe it was time to whittle myself down again.

And it’s not that I don’t want to do screenwriting. But I also don’t enjoy beating my head against a wall. I get pretty depressed, honestly, and it felt like it was time to limit the avenues that would generate that depression. And maybe that’s the wrong attitude to have. Maybe you’re saying, “Well, then, you must not be much of a writer if you can’t handle rejection.” Or, “You must not want it badly enough then.” And you could be correct on either or both counts. I don’t know. But I have enough self-awareness to know my own limits. And I’d finally reached one with the screenwriting.

It’s a difficult choice. My scripts received a lot of good feedback, did well in a number of competitions. But that doesn’t actually win you anything or get you much of anywhere. And I don’t have it in me to write the stuff most people seem to want to direct or produce. (Though in a number of cases I had interested directors, but they couldn’t get funding for the projects. So . . . I wasn’t writing what people wanted to invest in, I guess?)

I write full time. It’s my job. But I have to choose projects that are, in the end, going to further my goals. And, you know, maybe make me a little money. Writers can seldom afford to live off their earnings, but I do like to be able to fund my hair-and-nails habit.

A while back one of the pitching services I’d used a few times e-mailed me to suggest I try this or that manager. It was tempting. It’s like gambling, and you keep hoping you’ll hit the jackpot or whatever. But I started thinking about everything else I’d rather do with that money. And I reminded myself of how this service had suggested this or that person before and it had never worked out. So I walked away.

I’m having to live with the possibility that I’m not “good enough” for The Biz. I’m having to remind myself that doesn’t mean I’m entirely worthless. I’m having to come to terms with the fact that not all my dreams in life are going to be realized. Not all my goals are going to be met. It’s a hard lesson. But I’ve done a lot, and I hope to do much more. I’m just picking my battles.

Goals for 2016

I know I mentioned these in a previous post, but I like to state them clearly so I can track my progress throughout the year.

1. Finish the revision of Changers.
2. Find an agent or publisher for Changers.
3. With my co-writer, finish the Hard Reset script.
4. Write and release at least one more Sherlock Holmes story.
5. Attend at least one writing conference and/or do at least one reading or signing.

I’m going to leave it at that for now. I also intend to keep marketing Peter—only two weeks away now, eep! And note the links on the sidebar that allow you to find various online articles and podcasts about the book. I’ll add to that as bloggers post reviews and so on, so please keep checking back! And if you read and review Peter be sure to let me know!

Other more amorphous goals include more meditation time and continuing my exercise program. But the five above are (a) writing focused, and (b) easily ticked off as achieved (or not). I’ll check in periodically as the year progresses and may add new/revised goals as others are met.

Do you make goals? Resolutions?

Reviewing 2015

There are still a couple more days. More could happen. But here’s my 2015 so far:

72 rejections*
1 script optioned (that then lapsed)
1 book contract
1 new Sherlock Holmes story released
1 film premiere
1 shortlisted story
1 R&R (revise and resubmit) from an agent
1 potential agent who hasn’t signed me yet

I could also add that I’m co-writing a script with a couple guys, though that seems to have fallen by the wayside in past months. I’ll check in with them again after the new year. Aside from that project, though, I’ve more or less stepped away from screenwriting and am focusing on my prose projects.

I also attended a couple writing conferences. One local and then the DFW Con, which was amazing. I would definitely recommend that conference to other writers.

Sufficient to say 2015 was a good year. A lot of progress. And the rejections, well, those just come with being a writer.

2016 promises to be interesting, too. Peter will be released on January 15 (go pre-order on the Shop page! the Kindle version is discounted until release day!), which seems like a fine way to start the year. Hopefully it will set the tone for even more progress as the year goes on.

My goals for 2016 are pretty simple:

1. Finish the revision on Changers
2. Find an agent or publisher for Changers
3. Get “Aptera” accepted somewhere (it’s the story that has been shortlisted for an anthology)
4. Write at least one more Sherlock Holmes story
5. Help Peter find an audience

I put Peter last not because it’s least important—far from it—but because it’s the most difficult of the goals to quantify. The other four can easily be checked off, but the Peter thing is about marketing and just trying to get the book out there. Which I’m working my tail off to do, but . . . It’s harder to say if/when one has been successful at something like that. Maybe once Peter has some reviews or has been featured on some blogs?

I’d like to do a signing at the very least. But first I have to convince the publisher to do a print version of the book.

I’d also like to attend at least one conference this year, maybe two. It would be even more amazing if I were to be a guest at a conference, but I don’t know if I’m at that level quite yet.

Finally, increased meditation is a bit of a goal for me this year as well. Keeping up with my exercise routine but also making time and space for . . . quiet. Listening to myself, getting in touch with my intuition. Tuning in. I was recently guided to do this, and I think it’s important.

Also, to improve my posture.

I guess there’s a lot I want to do in 2016! I’m actually quite looking forward to this year.

*The rejections are combined book (Peter and Changers) and script rejections.

Putting 2015 in Rear View

These were my goals for 2015. I achieved two out of three, plus I did get to go back to London, if only for a weekend. Also, Adverse Possession did, in fact, premiere at a film festival. And the rom-com was optioned, though that option lapsed without the film moving toward production.

I’ve decided to put screenwriting on hold, so I won’t be actively looking to get Hunting Victor Frankenstein picked up, or 20 August, or really any of my scripts. Instead I plan to focus on my prose. So here are my burgeoning goals for 2016:

1. Get an agent or publisher for Changers.

I have a couple of each already interested, and I’m currently revising to make the manuscript even stronger.

2. Write and publish another Sherlock Holmes story.

These are still my bread and butter. I should put out at least one a year, and ideally more like one every 4–6 months. Alas, I’m not always feeling it.

3. Get a start on sequels to Peter and Changers.

I won’t get so ambitious as to say I’ll finish either manuscript, but I should at least get started on them.

Finally, I’d like to do at least one book signing for Peter when it comes out [in print]. Ideally more than one. I’d really like to see this book do well, and I’m going to put as much of my energy behind that as possible. Of course, I can only do so much, and don’t really have complete control over how well the book does or doesn’t do. But I’ll try to get the word out at least.

These goals are subject to change, of course. The ebb and flow of life may cause some boats to rise and others to fall. I try to remain fluid and flexible, adaptable. Turn my sails to the wind. Here’s hoping 2016 has favorable ones.